"You are way too young."

Ha. Yesterday at work one of the students asked me what my favorite rock band was. I thought about it and decided that it was Rush. So I told him, 'It's Rush, but they are way old'. A couple that has four daughters must have heard me, because the dad said. "You're WAY too young to know who Rush is!" and I said, "Maybe, but my father isn't too young to know who they are."

I just think it's funny when people say things like that. You're way too young. It doesn't matter my age. There are still plenty of things that I can know and or accomplish.

That sums up that thought.

I honestly don't have too many other thoughts. But I will say this.

I think it's amazing that Heavenly Father knows what my biggest problem is better than I do. I learned this yesterday while in institute. We were supposed to think about a challenge we are dealing with right now, and then look through a section of scripture to find the answer. I had my challenge in my head, but the scripture that I kept thinking of didn't have anything to do with it. After some thought, it connected. I'm glad I have a Father in Heaven who knows me better than I do. :)

That's my two cents for the day! :)

Seeminly Good Things. :)

Isn't it interesting how there are so many things that are 'good things' but they get in the way of things that are really important?

This was my thought process last night, after studying. I have one glow in the dark star in my room. This is supposed to remind me to think of what it was the Christ would do. What it is that I should do so that I can have my light shine like his.

Background information, two days ago there was some strange burning smell in my room, so everything was unplugged.

So not last night, but the night before i was looking at this star, and it was SO bright. I loved to look at it.

But then last night came around, and it wasn't as bright, and i was able to see why. I had plugged my clock back in, so the light came in the way of the Light from the star.

The clock is a good thing, but sometimes all of the good things in our lives come in between us and what is really important. It's interesting really. How many things do I have in my life that are stepping in my way?

Lately I've been thinking a lot about this. What friends are worth it. It is really tough. I don't know why there has to be so many decisions that I have to make all at once. But I guess that that's life, right? Sometimes I think of a friends name, and I get worried, because I don't know if i'm making the right decision about them.

Really, it's sad. But there is one thing I know. A true friend is someone who brings me closer to Christ. So why shouldn't Jesus Christ be my best friend? :)

Food for thought! :)

Anyway, that is all of my thoughts for the moment! Thanks for reading! :)

Institute, How I Love You. :)

The statement says it all. Institute, How I Love You! :) Seeing as you don't know the story, I suppose that I will tell you.

Have you ever had a day where you were just down? It isn't that something is for say wrong, but that nothing is exactly right? Ya Know? Well that was my day today. I kinda just felt, alone i guess. That's not true and I know that. But, it just felt that way. Like there were too many friends that just weren't there anymore. The day continued on as i began to think about this making the day worse and worse.

So I go to institute. And we are learning about when Christ visits the America's. My day isn't exactly getting better, but then it happened. The person in charge of the devotional didn't show up. So he had us look in the scriptures in our block of scripture reading and tells us to pick one and be prepared to talk about it. I found a scripture in Chapter 17 of 3 Nephi. It is saying that they couldn't express in words how it felt to hear Christ pray. And then my day started to turn around. :) I was reminded of exactly how I felt during my patriarchal blessing. How it is indescribable! :) Then another student commented on the term 'I Perceive'. Which really means that he can discern. And it got brought up that your bishop can discern. And i was reminded of my interview with my bishop for my patriarchal blessing. How i was nervous (because satan wants me to be) because i'm worried i'm not worthy (which was dumb because i knew i was) and the bishop said "Heidee, you are a woman of virtue, and i don't say things like that lightly." He must have used his judgment to know that i needed that then, and even today.

Thank you institute, thank you. :)

So You Wanna Know Heidee Miller

okay, so the title of this post may not be the truth. But honestly I just thought it was a clever title. So that is why it is up there. :)

So the past like... week. I've been in this super pondering mood.

Why? I dunno.

"really, think about it, why?".... "I dunno." (Name that movie) hahaha. :)

Hahaha. But I have decided many random things!!! Most of which are about marriage.

Why? I dunno.

"really, think about it, why?".... "I dunno." (Name that movie) hahaha. :)

HAHAHAHAHAHA. :) I just had to do it. I'm sorry. :)

Anyway. I don't know how I should do this. But let me tell you. These are top secret... kinda. Okay, so not really. But these are Random facts about me... most of the things that I decided when I was in my pondering personality. :)

Hahaha Okay. 20 Facts about Heidee Miller

#1. I want to be proposed to while on the shore of Smith and Morehouse, while just me and my said future husband are staring at the stars. Why? I know the answer to this one. Everywhere I have ever gone I always gaze at the stars. I guess I just find it amazing. Because if Heavenly Father knows where all of those stars are, each and every one (Which I'm sure he does, no wait. I know he does) There isn't a doubt in my mind that He knows exactly where I am, at all times. :) Now, why Smith and Morehouse? in a previous post I have stated this. But I have decided that that is my peace place. :) If I could be anywhere. It would be there. (Now, does it necessarily have to be at Smith and Morehouse? No. But that'd be nice. I just care about the stars)

#2. I have two kids names picked out. (again, I have no idea why I was thinking about all of this, but I guess i have been)

I want to name one of my girls Windee. Why? because that was the other option for what my name was supposed to be (Awweeee.)

I also want to name one of my girls Ellee. :) Why? My dads name is Ellis, and my moms name is Debbie. Ell ie. But I want to keep the double e tradition. So Ellee. :) (Aweee)

#3. I want to be married in the Ogden Temple. Just like my parents. (But secretly, I hope to get married before that's a possibility, because It's going to be closed for three years. I guess I could live waiting til then.... i dunno... :))

#4. Future Husband. I would love it if you gave me roses on a day BESIDES valentines. Just FYI.

(Btw. These first few are more towards my future, whereas the rest will be more focused on the randomness I call my life)

#5. I LOVE camping. I don't know why!!! I just do!. As Much as I wanna go back to New york.. Like... Right now. I probably would chose camping over it. :)

#6. I secretly would totally be okay with dying after I have successfully learned to play Hungarian Rhapsody by Franz Litz. (For those of you that don't know. Look it up. Then You will understand this statement. I'm pretty sure there is like a ten year old boy that plays it on YouTube. Makes me a little sick inside)

#7. I would be okay Eating Cheesy Potatoes every day for the rest of my life. :)

#8. If You wanna win my heart, buy me a movie/television series. :) (Not that that's the only way, but that for sure WOULD work) :)

#9. I love Grape Flavored things. I honestly don't know why. Because honestly, the purple like ice cream kinda really grosses me out by how it looks. But. Hey. I like it :)

#10. If I could have my dream car, it would be a Purple Mustang Convertible. I know this is a long shot. But it would be my dream car.

#11. Red Robin always sounds good. :)

#12. Secretly I think that I don't really like Chicken Nuggets/Strips. I honestly think I just like honey mustard. :)

#13. Yumberry Pomegranate might be my favorite sobe life water. Ever. I don't know what Yumberry is. But I sure like it!

#14. I like ghetto no bake cheesecake better than actual cheesecake.

#15. I kinda wish that I could (in real life) throw a Hymn Book at someone giving a talk in Sacrament meeting like on Pride & Prejudice (the LDS version) just for fun.

#16. I wish that knowledge was like osmosis, you just absorbed the information from it coming through the permeable layer we call our brain. :)

#17. I think everyone is narcissistic. At least. I know I am. A little bit.

#18. Although everyone disagrees. I'd be totally down with seeing a movie on a first date. Well.. Not like in theaters. If it was at their house or something. Go for it. It'd be ballin.

#19. I want to go on a trip to do service somewhere. But I want to do something unique. I.E. I don't want to go to China to teach English. I'd rather go to South America. or something like that.

#20. Secretly, I really like math and science. Kidna always have. Not sure why. But I don't like geology. Just. fyi.

I. Know.

Blogging has utterly killed me. Ha Ha. There isn't a day that goes by where I haven't thought, at least once, "I can blog about this". :) hahahaha. Oh boy, I'm a nerd.

Anyway, I was reading my scriptures the other day. I was reading in Jacob. And I was reading a chapter that is speaking about journal keeping. There is a specific verse that said something along the lines of "Do this so that you can look back and see that you Knew God."

So hear I am.

I want you all to know,

I Know that there is a Father in Heaven that Loves and watches over me.

I Know that my Savior, Jesus Christ, died for my sins, and that He Loves me.

I Know that my Heavenly Father and Savior, Jesus Christ, have a hand in my life. That they protect me from danger. And they comfort me when I'm weak.

Although we are all familiar with the 'Footprints in the Sand' Poem. I want you to know that I don't believe it. I KNOW that Jesus Christ carries me, ALWAYS. Not just when times get tough. He is there to lift me up, always.

I Know that Heavenly Father hears and answers my prayers.

I Know that I am much more than just a person, I am a Daughter of God.

I Know that no matter what I do, they will always be on the other side cheering that I am theirs.

I Know that My Redeemer Lives. He Lives. And I Know that one day, I will see Him, Face to Face.

Friendships Once had, but Forgotten..

As was stated in a previous post, I went to Logan with my good pal Alex.. :) good pal? Naw... My Bestie! :) Me and Her are going to play. That is all I have to say!

So I thought that I would tell you the events of those days. :)
So we Left For Logan, Fog, etc. :) we arrived and found a good parking spot, walked all the way to the top of Morgan Hall (can't guarentee that's the right building) and there awaited Kimberlee Anne Owens! :) What did I do while I was in Logan you might ask? well I will tell you! Backround Information: I was never allowed to go on Sleepovers when I was little (a.k.a. my entire youthhood) I know why but the importance doesn't matter, and I guess it never really affected me. So this whole 'sleepover' thing was a big deal)

Let's put in this way, Imagine 4 LDS girls getting together for a weekend. Do you picture alcohol and drugs? no... bummer. Well. What You invisioned was correct. :)

We went to the mall, of course there was a little bit of shopping, but that wasn't the main reason that we went there. We went to try on prom dresses, that's right, prom dresses.

Question: Why?...
Answer: I don't know.
Question: Was it fun?
Answer: Yes. For the most part.

I picked out what i thought would be the most hideoderous dress i'd ever tried on.

Question: Was it?
Answer: Suprisingly, no. Now i wouldn't choose it for Prom obviously. ha. it was from the 'old ladies' section. But it wasn't bad. It wasn't cute. but it wasn't bad. :)

Next we went and got Pizza. And we ate pizza. Way too much. But entirely worth it! :)
Then we watched movies... Chick Flicks.... "You've Got Mail" and "A Walk to Remember"

Question: Was I in the mood for chick flicks?
Answer: Not exactly.
Question: Did you fall Asleep?
Answer: Yes. Yes I did.
Question:Did that Benfit you when staying up until 4?
Answer: Yes. Yes it did. :)

We also Had aggie ice cream. Was i very impressed? not exactly. But ice Cream is good. :) Alqways good. :)

We also Had quacamole. I made it. And it was delectable :)

Then we stayed up talking. which is always good.
The trip ended off with second guessing of directions :) Alex had invited me to go listen to a boy for her ward talk. :) It was good.

Then it was time to go home. And can i just tell you that the conversations me and Alex had on our way home were AMAZING. Alex is truly a friend that I love dearly and forgot about how amazing of a friend she is. :) Me and her must do this more often. Because she knows so much about me and i know so much about her.

After leaving early, wondering if we would beat the snow. I arrived at home. :) And guess what. It didn't start snowing until the second I walked into the door. :) Blessings in disguise. :)

Reflections In the Mirror.. :)

I seem to be writing in the same general way lately. Maybe it's because I'm in a stupid 1010 english class so I now think of only one way to write, and that is to develope a purpose for my audience. I guess the only thing that is my problem is that while I write this blog, I am not sure who my audience is. Who is my audience? Is it a bunch of grown women with children? or is it a bunch of 18 year olds trying to figure out both? technically because I have to invite people to see my blog I guess the answer is both. So i guess that all of you get something out of what I have to say. Whether it is a good laugh, or an actual insight.

Today I had an insight. A big one. I guess i'd kinda been thinking about it for a couple of days. But have you ever thought about the moment when you last look in the mirror, to make sure that you are ready (No wise cracks, I know there is a Moment in Disturbia that states this very same thing, and yes, I did think about it. ;]) It's like you just look at yourself, to make sure that you are presentable, that you've done a good enough job of making yourself good. Well. Today i had a big connection.

You can put on a cute brand new outfit that you just bought. Do you make-up seeminly perfect. Put in perfectly matchin earings. Take the time at 6:30 in the morning to straighten your haird. And even put on a nice warm coat for the forelorned cold day that was ahead. You can walk out the door and be fully prepared what is in store for you. But really, you are never really prepared. You walk outside and mock the 'cold' weather. Because at that moment it wasn't as cold as you anticipated. You feel at the top of the world, and then you pass the education building and there it is, the bitter cold wind that you have to fight against if you want to succeed in going to your class! Your face will numb, and your knees will start to buckle. And yet, you still keep going. There would be many reasons fighting against you, that you had tried so hard to be good. And yet all of these things are blown at you that are trying to bring you down. Make al your effort a waste. But yet, for me, i still kept going, even when the going got tough.
I heard a good quote in institute on Thursday.
" No man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good. A silly idea is that good people do not know what temptation is. This is an obvious lie. Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is. After all, you find out the strength of the German Army by fighting against it, not by giving in. You find out the strength of the wind by trying to walk against it, not by lying down. A man who gives into temptation after five minutes simply does not know what it would have been like an hour later. That is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness. They have lived a shelter life by always giving in. We never find out the strength of the evil impulse inside us until we try to fight it: and Christ, because He was the only man who never yielded to temptation, is also the only man who knows to the full what temptation means- The only complete realist." -C.S. Lewis

I think that it is important to remember. That even though life is hard, we can do hard things. We can overcome temptation. And even if we do fall, we can get back up. That even if we do sin, there are people in the backround always cheering us on! That Christ will always say that we are His! We need to remember to not lose hope. There is always a way back!

Why I had this thought, I am not sure. But I hope that maybe, maybe it'll help someone out there. So the next time you look in the mirror, You see that you are ready. Ready to fight.