High of 75 :)

"It's funny how you find you enjoy your life when you're happy to be alive."-Relient K

Well man this says it all. It's so true! We enjoy our lives when we realize that we love the opportunity to have one. :) Now, time to get to my randomness :) First off, Why am i so paranoid that my teeth are gonna fall out? Stupid yes? I believe so. I don't know if i've already posted about this. But even i am sick of the fact that i think about it constantly. And today i figured out why i think they seem loose. I think that they are moving slightly. I can feel the difference in the levelness of them. Anyway. That was totally random.

I've had a hard couple of days. I was dreading Sunday, knowing that it would be the first time that i went to Relief Society. I've loved young womens, so the thought of leaving them to go to rs made me sad. Then i learned that Bradon wanted to go to a friends homecoming talk. I was happy, knowing that i wouldn't have to pull off the bandaid just yet. And then to my dismay he didn't feel well, and had to go home. So i went. And i had the worst experience. The lesson in Gospel Doctrine went RIGHT over my head. And then to top it off, we talked about food storage in rs. ... I don't have a house to do that.. I felt so alone. I missed having friends, not having to start conversations, i missed being a kid. I was so sad. But you know what happened? A good friend commented on my status on facebook and said "Sit by me next week k?" Yet ANOTHER tender mercy! The next day didn't go much better. I had a second job interview at Bravo music school. And it didn't go well. But you know what my tender mercy was? i realized that maybe it wasn't the job for me. I love when Heavenly Father helps me find out what His plan for me is :)

And it all got better today as well. :) College ROCKS! :) I signed up for an institute class which makes it good too! :)

Now to my next random post! :) I have AMAZING best friends. I <3 them! :)

Alyssa Thornley is my best friend! I love her! we are sisters! we talk to each other about anything and everything! :) we love horses, are total dorks, but love life! I met Alyssa in Orchestra. and you wanna know the funny thing? we both thought that the other was like 'too good' to be friends with us. And BAHA look what happened. I think we became close because of Seminary Last year. We shared the spirit every day in class. And if there ever was something that we didn't think was quite right about the class, we would share it with each other. How we became so close? I'm not quite sure.. We just had the same feelings about A LOT of things. And then we went to Seattle.. that's a story in and of itself :) I love her! And our kids are gonna ride horses together :) haha

Ashley Bennett is my best friend! Me and her have one of those friendships that are totally equal! She gives and i take, and i take and she gives!! :) I LOVE IT! We both were in the presidency for Seminary. But we've known each other since 10th grade. We both had Mrs. Muhlestein :) haha... wow what a class. :) We both were in the presidence in our seminary class as well. We would tell each other stories about boys! And just be all giddy so that our teacher would look at us like.... wow.. girls. :) I love her to death! We both go to weber! So we are gonna party like we're rock stars! :)

Kimberlee Owens is my best friend! And i love her! I have known her since i can remember! We have always had each others backs! It didn't matter if our opposition was right! We always backed eachother up! We've even let each other read our diaries! :) They are quite funny if i do say so myself. If we had a crush, we were the first ones to know. I don't know if i deserved the friendship that Kim has given me, but she has been one of those friends that even if we went through a rough patch, We could always fall back on each other! We listen to one another! And aske if the other is alright, and actually wait until we finally give up a true answer! We've laughed, cried, laughed til we cried, sang, played the violin, played the piano, and even taken pictures together. I can't believe that after 18 years, for the first time, we have been seperated. And not lived 2 streets from each other. I love her and miss her terribly!

Well.. That is the end of my random post! but it's funny how I find that I enjoy MY life, when I"M happy to be alive :)

I love me some Tender Mercies :)

"He's the tender behind the mercy, the unconditional in love, And when I need forgiveness, He's the redeeming Son. More and more I see He's the tender behind the mercy"-Hilary Weeks.

Doesn't it seem like sometimes everything seems to be going wrong? I sure believe so. It's been a long few weeks. With many good things happening along the way. But doesn't it seem like when we are having a major change in our life that we begin to fog our judgment; and when that happens, that is when Satan decides to attack? Well that has been happening to me.

Starting college has been a major stress, and excitement. I have been clouded over by this sin that I realized I've done in the past, but never thought about until now? Isn't that so weird? It took me almost a year and 4 Bishop interviews to feel bad for it? And so with all of this change occurring, and then remembering a past sin, Satan saw me as a fish out of water, an easy target. So I've been in this slump. Feeling like such an awful person that had no friends. And this is where my first tender mercy came into play. I was on itunes, trying to use up my gift card I got for graduation. And I remembered that a lady in my ward had said the titles of some Hilary Weeks songs that she had performed at a fireside. So I went on facebook hoping that if I scrolled down on her profile long enough, that I might be able to see the titles. As i scrolled down I found a post from her that was meant for me to see right now. "Men are that they might have joy----Not guilt trips!"-Russell M. Nelson. After reading this talk, I know that I won't become perfect, not in this life anyway. Today I began to feel bad again, and then something wonderful happened. Another tender mercy. I remembered a quote that Brother Waldron had shared in seminary class. "Christ doesn't take the people out of the slums, He takes the slum out of the people and lets them get themselves out of the slums." So, Christ has taken that sin out of me, but now it's up to be to A-get better at this sin. and B-to forgive myself so that i can fully have repented.

Tonight was such a wonderful tender mercy as well. I had to opportunity to attend a baptism of a girl that lives in my neighborhood. She had asked me to give the talk on baptism. I was so nervous. But the tender mercy I had while I was there, was to feel of the sweet spirit that resides in those meetings. I am so proud of my little 'daughter' :) "it's amazing how vital the spirit becomes when we allow it into our lives"-Brother Jenkins.

Now on to other tender mercies. I decided to be the one to talk in college. People are in their own little bubble and I'm about to pop that bubble. I sat by the only other girl in my first class that this was her first semester of college. I think that we got along really well. The tender mercy I found in that class is that me and the girl next to me, Katie, both find how my teacher writes her e's to be ridiculous! :) In my second class, I found it easier to pay attention, regardless of how i feel about the teacher. My History BFF makes everything better in that class. The election for Brother Jenkins was brought up by her. I remembered everything that happened and I started to feel so bad for him. After talking to him later, i felt the tender mercy of his testimony that Heavenly Father blessed him for not winning the election. In my third class, we introduced ourselves to the class. That class is going to be so wonderful. I can learn so much from them. :) That was a tender mercy. My forth class I found someone to talk to, another tender mercy.

To top it all off, my sister invited me to go to institute with her and her friend. Yet another tender mercy. :)

I am so glad that I could receive these blessings, and that I again am happy :)

This I Believe... :)

I Believe in Christ

• I believe that He walked this earth as the only perfect person, that He suffered for my sins, and that He suffered for yours too.
• I believe that He loves me and that no matter what I do, He is still there to cheer me on, wishing for me to make it home.
• I believe that with Him, I can accomplish any task.
• I believe that He is the one person who knows exactly what I'm going through, and exactly how it feels.
• I believe that He lives.

I believe in a loving Father in Heaven

• I believe that He sent me here to earth to gain knowledge
• I believe that He loves me and only wants the best for me.
• I believe that He gives me trials in order to give me strength.
• I believe that He is wise, and that if I will seek Him, I can become like Him someday.
• I believe that if I ask Him, He will bring me comfort in my time of need.

I believe that death is the beginning, not the end

• I believe that I will be able to see all of those I have lost in this world, and that the reunion will be sweet.
• I believe that after death I will be able to have a family, and that my role as a mother doesn't end with death.
• I believe that life after death will be perfect, but that our divine purpose and goals will continue.

I believe in a sense of humor

• I believe that "when you lose your power to laugh, you lose your power to think straight."-inherit the wind
• I believe that laughter is like an illness, it is contagious, but that if it would spread, the world would be a better place.
• I believe that when nothing else can make you feel better, that a good joke will cheer up your soul, and bring positivity to your mind.

I believe that everyone is important

• I believe that we each have our own divine purpose here on earth.
• I believe that you need to learn how Heavenly Father feels about you, because then what the world thinks won't matter.
• I believe that with a little self esteem, the abilities someone can do would surpass all imagination.
• I believe that we are all pieces to a puzzle, and that without one piece; the puzzle would never be complete.

I believe in love at home

• I believe that there is no greater love than that of family
• I believe that when the entire world is look down on you, that your family is looking up.
• I believe that those who love their family have the capacity to love others.
• I believe that home should be a place of safety.
• I believe that we are given families so we can have strength.
• I believe that families are Heavenly Fathers plan for us

I believe in music

• I believe that music can affect the mood of an individual, for the good or for the bad.
• I believe that music can touch the soul of someone when nothing else can.
• I believe that when one has the ability to create music, they have the ability to create happiness.
• I believe that music is a haven, where your mind can go wherever it wants, and where you feelings can be expressed.

I believe in true friendship

• I believe that everyone needs a friend.
• I believe that a true friendship is equal. That we each ask for help, but give in return.
• I believe a true friend is always there for you, to laugh at your bad jokes, and to be a shoulder to cry on.

I believe in crying

• I believe that crying is a symbol of humility.
• I believe that sometimes, you must cry to release any anger.
• I believe that each time a tear is released; you lose that weight of that burden from your shoulders.

I believe in expressing your feelings.

• I believe that people are sent here to help others. And the only way for them to help you, is for you to ask for help.
• I believe that by sharing your feelings, you might just resolve your problems.
• I believe that bottling emotions inside leads to an outburst that isn't necessary.

I believe in happiness.

• I believe that life is too short to be anything but happy.
• I believe that one positive attitude can overthrow 100 negative ones.
• I believe that you can fake happiness for the sake of others, and pretty soon, you will even fool yourself that you're happy too.

I believe in love.

• I believe that if we spread a little love around, that the world would be a better place.
• I believe that love can heal all wounds, even if it was love that created the scar.
• I believe that my true love is out there, i just haven't met him yet.

I believe in faith

• I believe that sometimes you need to just trust that things will go right.
• I believe that some of the truest things in the world are the things which aren't seen.
• I believe that when you look for the impossible, you will find the truth.

I believe in forgiveness

• I believe that before we can fully forgive another, we must first forgive ourselves.
• I believe that no matter how wrong the other was to you, you are lower than them unless you forgive.
• I believe that revenge is bitter, and that forgiveness is sweet.
• I believe that forgiveness is hard, but that its rewards are greater than our knowledge

I believe in hugs

• I believe that a good hug can ease a person's pain.
• I believe that sometimes all someone needs is a hug.
• I believe that hugs bring warmth and comfort that no amount of words can bring.

I believe in trust.

• I believe that everyone needs somebody to trust.
• I believe that in order to trust someone, you too must be trusted.
• I believe that if we could all trust each other, we could love everyone.

I believe in honesty

• I believe that honesty is the greatest value a person can have.
• I believe that honesty can show who is great, and who is weak.

I believe in respect

• I believe that in order to receive respect, we must give respect.
• I believe that we should respect everyone, no matter the age, gender, or maturity level. We are all human and we should be treated like it.

I believe in service to others

• I believe that everyone needs a hand sometimes in their life, and that we should offer that hand to them.
• I believe that service doesn't have to be anything big, a simple smile could be service enough.
• I believe that one small act of service could mean the world to someone.
• I believe that service is love.
• I believe that a person can grow through service to others.

I believe your body is a temple

• I believe that we should not treat our bodies like objects, that we should treat them as one of the most sacred things in the world.
• I believe that we should protect our bodies, that we should avoid toxic substances, only do respectable piercing, and never damage them with tattoos.
• I believe that how we dress our temple shows how we feel about ourselves.
• I believe that our bodies should be saved for our eternal spouse.

I believe in life

• I believe that life is a gift, and that we must cherish it.
• I believe that the journey of life will show our strengths, and let us learn from our weaknesses.
• I believe that life is a test, a test to see who we will follow, what is right, or what is wrong.

I believe in true beauty.

• I believe that beauty comes from the inside out.
• I believe that a person's personality is their real beauty
• I believe that a person can be pretty no matter what the modeling agency would say.
• I believe that everyone is beautiful in their own way.

I believe in individuality

• I believe that we were all made different in order to create happiness.
• I believe that everything that makes us different is what makes us special
• I believe that we shouldn't hide who we really are to impress anyone; we are made this way for a purpose. And we should strive to fulfill that purpose.
• I believe that we should stand up for what we want, and let go of those things which don't matter.

I believe in character

• I believe that you should never give up what you really want, for what you want right now.
• I believe that a person's character comes from how they treat others, how they treat themselves, and how they react to the wrongness of the world.
• I believe that character is how you act when no one is watching. That even though you wouldn't be recognized for your right action, you still do it with no reward.

I believe in the power of language

• I believe that your words can either bring someone up, or they can tear them down.
• I believe that our words show our character, that if we use respectable language, that we will be respected.

I believe that everyone should know what they believe

• I believe that we all believe in something, even if we don't know what it is.
• I believe that knowing your beliefs brings happiness and understanding
• I believe that believing in something brings hope
• I believe that you should write down what you believe
• I believe that beliefs lead to knowledge.

I believe that sometimes the crowd is just plain wrong.

• I believe that we need to be strong enough to stand up to the things that are wrong.
• I believe that wickedness should not be sought for, and that it doesn't bring happiness
• I believe that those who are strong enough to fight for what they believe will be look up to by those who seek for wickedness.

Foolish Questions

You've All heard foolish questions and no doubt have wondered why,

A person who will ask them can expect a sane reply.

Suppose Shane Rowley gives his girl some roses, though selfdom this would be,

Notice how she quickly grabs them and says "Are these for me?"

Foolish Questions! And he answers if he can,

"Why No. They're for my roommates or for my other girlfriend Pam.

I just wanted you to see them, no I'll take them right away."
Now there's a foolish question that you'll hear most any day!

Each morning J.T. eyes the mirror admiring his grace,

And then he takes his shaving brush and lathers up his face.

And as he gives his razor that preliminary wave,

Steve Hollingworth walks in and asks. "Are you going to shave?"

Foolish Questions! And his answer is, i hope.

"Why no. I'm not at all prepared for shaving, I just like the taste of soap!

I like to take my shaving brush and paint my face this way."

Now there's a foolish question that you'll hear most any day!

As Bishop Naylor leaves home, his wife stops him on the way,

And asks him where he's going, then listens while he'll say.

"I'm going to the funeral of dear old cousin Ned."

And as soon as he finished, she will ask him "Is he dead?"

Foolish Questions! And he might as well reply,

"Why no, He thought he'd have the funeral now, then later on he'll die.

Cousin Ned was so original, he'd have wanted things that way."

Now there's a foolish question that you'll hear most any day!

When Brother Littlefield and son are hunting and riding in the snow

He gets bucked off at the cliff's edge, to the rocky floor below.

And as he hits the bottom and is lying there inert,

His son leans down and yells out, "Hey Dad, are you hurt?"
Foolish Questions! And his dying words are "No!

I was in an awful hurry and my horse was too darn slow!

I thought i'd save a little time by coming down this way."
Now there's a foolish question that you'll hear most any day!

Sometimes we all have real bad days, when nothing's going right.

We end up sad or scared or lonely when we got home at night.

We get in bed and hope that somehow, our troubles fade away.

And just before we get to sleep, a thought comes "Should i pray?"
Foolish Questions. And we might shake it off real quick.

"I like being miserable, confused, upset, or sick.

I'll get the spirit tomorrow, I'm just too tired today."
Now there's a foolish question that you'll hear most any day!

Isn't it amazing how true this poem is. The first thing we think is. Should we pray? I know that prayer is such an important part of our lives. And i wish that we all would remember that. I know that i'm not the best at this either. I have always had a hard time remembering to pray in the morning.

Yesterday at church, we had an amazing Sacrament meeting on Prayer. Brother Newman spoke on how we need to stop, and think and ponder on what we had prayed about after we say amen. I know that i truly need to work on that.

My brother also spoke, and he said "imagine that you are going to be away from the people that you love the most, and can't talk or see them for two years. But you can have one phone call every 6 months. How important would that phone call be?" Then he began to compare this to our Heavenly Father. Just as it killed my parents not being able to speak to Bradon. When we don't talk to our Heavenly Father, it deeply saddens him. He misses us, and wants to know how we are doing.

I think we all should make a goal to pray twice daily! This shouldn't be too hard, since school is starting, we need all the help we can get. Let us remember that we have a Father in Heaven, that misses us, loves us, and wants us to come home. And we can return home, by kneeling down, and asking for his help.

These are a Few of My Favorite Things :)

Today I decided that I going to share a big of my favorite things. :) like gumdrops and roses... ;) Hahahaha jk jk. But there are a lot of things out there that I do truly [truly scrumptious, you're truly truly scrumptious(hahaha, man I am a movie aholic! name that movie ;))] love. How am I going to do this? not really sure, but that's okay. :) so here I go. First I will be very blunt, not very detailed, and then I will go into the specifics! :)

Heidee's Favorites!

1. I love the color PURPLE
2. I love horses!
3. I love dogs! :)
4. I LOVE MOVIES!!!!! I am literally addicted! But it's all good, because then when I am saying something, I can always make it sound cool with a movie quote! :)
5. I love my family!
6. I love my friends!
7. I love the gospel!!
8. I love the Piano!
9. I love music!
10. I love Nature!
11. I love books!
12. I love Learning!
13. I Love being HAPPY :):):)
14. I love Helping!
15. I love being ME! :)

1. Now as for number one! I truly do love the color purple. Always have. Not sure why. Maybe it's because it's that perfect mix of red and blue. Or maybe it's because Barney was that color. I guess i will never know. But now you will always think of me, when you see the color purple!

2. I absolfreakinlutely LOVE horses :) Again, i always have. The first ti

me I rode a horse by myself, i was 8. If i were to pick one horse, one breed that if i could do anything in the world to get this horse for free, it would be an Andalusian! :) They are SOOO pretty~ :) although, i do like quarter horses, and Paints!!! 3-colored paints are the bomb! :)

3. I love dogs!! i have one of my own. Her name is Lilo. She is my little lilo :) Black labs are for sure in my favorites list with dogs. But so is a Nova Scotia Duck Tolling Retriever! They are so sweet!!!!!!

4. Ok, Movies, for shizzle! THE BOMB! :) I would have to say that i could probably make a top ten list of movies! and i will try to do that!

• Alladin
• She's the Man
• Pride and Prejudice
• Disturbia
• Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
• Remember the Titans
• How to Train Your Dragon
• 17 again
• Cars
• up

So. I don't know for sure if that's right But its the best guess for n

ow :) Now as for tv shows that's easy.

• Charmed
• 7th Heaven
• Everwood
• Glee
• Reba
• Supernatural

5. I love my Family! They are the greatest thing

that has every happened to me! I have 2 sisters and a brother! My brother just got back from his mission and he is amazing. I look up to my family so much! When i grow up i am going to be just like them :)

6.I am such a social person, so without friends i would be lost! I have such a

wide variety of friends that it's so easy to be friends with everyone! I have so many Best Friends that it's hard to keep track! But i would have to say these are my bestest best friends :)

• Alyssa Thornley
• Ashley Bennett
• Alyssa Nilson
• Melissa Nelson
• Kimberlee Owens

They have made the person that i am today! Without them, i would be a depressed little child! They make me so happy! And i never ever want to lose them! There are many, many others! But i hope that i stay in touch with all of them.

7. Oh man to i love being a Member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints! It is such a blessing in my life and i have no idea where i would be without it! When i saw a little boy had gotten baptized in my ward i wanted to run up to him and say i was so proud, and that this is one decision in his life that he will never regret! And that is so true! I have never once regretted being a member of this church! And i forever will stay a member :)

8.I have been playing the piano for 8 years now. And i love it! :) it is my joy! There is something about making music that makes you forget about all your troubles of the world. And when you master that tough song you just feel sooooooooo good :) I love it! My favorite composers are David Lanz and Jon Schmidt :)

9. I love to listen to music! It is so awesome! here are my favorite artists!

• Forever the Sickest Kids
• Hilary Weeks
• Rocket Summer
• All time Low

There are others, but i can't think of them right now !:) these are my top 4!

10. I love to be outside! Although it's hot or cold! i just love to look at all of the things around me! that is why i love love love love love camping! :) i love to see all of those stars that you just cant see when you are in the city! I love flowers! My favorite is the lupin. My favorite season is Fall! :) I love all of the colors!

11. I have grown to become addicted to books! I love the little world that books bring your mind to! If i could suggest any books for someone to read! These would be them

• fahrenheit 451
• To Kill a Mockingbird
• Their Eyes were watching God
• Pride and Prejudice
• Frankenstein
• Harry Potter
• Twilight Series
• Uglies Series
• The Book of Mormon

This is such a random group of books! But they are by far my favorite! Amongst others!

12. I love to learn something new! It makes me want to gain all the knowledge that i can so i can help people for the rest of my life! I really like math and science! i'm pretty strong in those subjects!

13. My theory is why go through life unhappy! I know that we all have our down days, and trust me, i have many. But we just need to be happy! Because that is the purpose of life. to be happy. "Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured!"

14. I am always willing to help ease anyone elses burdens! I just love to help out and to just do everything!

15. I love being myself! and i love being with people that can make me be myself! They remind me how amazing each individual person is! And i just love to be who i am, and who my Heavenly Father wants me to be!

So that is my favorites list! :) I love you all! And hope you all have a great school year!

Girl's Just Wanna Have Fun. :)

"I Promise you dear young sisters that if you live the standards of personal worthiness contained in the Young Women's program, great will be your happiness and endless will be your joy."-President James E. Faust

So, i know that this has been the most random/churchy few posts ever! But what can I say, this is my blog of randomness! :) Last night as me and Melissa were discussing why it is that the Sunday School Presidency is men. I can to this conclusion, I had learned this once before but it truly hit me last night. Being a woman is Amazing. And such a divine calling. For Reals, think about it!

I just hear girls all the time saying guys get it all. I agree like physically they have it way easier than we do. And sure they have the Priesthood, which would be such an amazing gift. But like, I think it is such a diving calling to be a woman, and i wish others would see that too.

Can you imagine what the spirit is going to feel like when you give birth to a child. It's so pure, so innocent! And just left our Heavenly Father! We as women bring life to this world. We are so empathetic. We are highly favored by our Heavenly Father. More women receive salvation than men. Really when you put it all together it's so amazing!

This may be kinda odd, but I LOVE to read talks by the general authorities on Womanhood. They view us so highly and I just love to hear what they have to say. I Love a talk by President James E. Faust. It is titled Womanhood:The Highest Place of Honor.

He Says:

"The true spirit of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints gives to woman the highest place of honor in human life. To maintain and to merit this high dignity she must possess those virtues which have always, and which will ever, demand the respect and love of mankind... [because] 'a beautiful and chaste woman is the perfect workmanship of God."

Did you hear that?? PERFECT WORKMANSHIP OF GOD! In His eyes, we are perfect! If we will do everything that we know we are supposed to do we will be viewed as The Highest Place of Honor.

He also goes on to say this.

"I wonder if you sisters fully understand the greatness of your gifts and talents and how all of you can achieve the "highest place of honor" in the Church and in the world. One of your unique, precious, and sublime gifts is your femininity, with it's natural grace, goodness, and divinity. Femininity is not just lipstick, stylish hairdos, and trendy clothes. It is the divine adornment of humanity. It finds expression in your qualities of your capacity to love, your spirituality, delicacy, radiance, sensitivity, creativity, charm, graciousness, gentleness, dignity, and quiet strength. It is manifest differently in each girl or woman, but each of you possesses it. Femininity is part of your inner beauty."

Okay, holy cow! is that not amazing? He just used like a gbajillion words to tell us why we are awesome! Just look at all those qualities that Heavenly Father has given us as women. I'm sure there are men out there that would KILL to have charm, and we get it.. just like that . I am SO grateful to be a woman.President Faust words it best, so i will just use his "We will all have peace in our hearts and a knowledge of our true identity when we know 'who we are and what God expects us to be.'" President Faust closed his talk by saying this.

"My dear young sisters, your future is bright. It can exceed your fondest dreams and expectations. No everything that happens in your life will be as you have hoped and have planned. But if you live so as to know the Lord's will, you will find peace in your soul and great happiness. You will be among those who will enjoy "the highest place of honor in human life.""

Well.. I don't know about you, but i DEFINITELY want to be placed with those women. I Love being a woman. I can't wait for the moment when i get to rock my baby to sleep. I can't wait to kiss a knee all better. and I can't wait to be in the highest honor in human life. :)

"No Mission, No Jill" :)

As I was reading another one of my friends blogs, I had this thought. My Husband is out there somewhere, and I wonder, just wonder, if he is preparing for me, as I am preparing for him. :) So Husband Listen up, because I have got somethin to say :)

Future Husband,

I know you are out there somewhere, and I know we are meant to be together Forever! :) But there are some things that I want to ask of you. Please, stay worthy and close to the gospel! Obey the law of Chastity. Rely on our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Gain a Firm testimony of this Gospel. And please, PLEASE, go on a mission. I know that the growth you will go through while on your mission is exactly the growth that I need from you. If by chance we meet before you go on your mission, please never ever tell me that if I asked you, that you would not go on your mission. And please know that i NEVER would. No matter how much I loved you, I would ALWAYS love you enough to send you on your mission. And just as we heard in general conference, if you decided to not go on your mission because of me, I would say "no mission, no Heidee." I do not want to be the excuse for you to not serve the Lord for 2 years. I want you to have a firm desire, like my brother did, to go on a mission. It'll be the best 2 years of your life. But please, RIGHT NOW, make the goal to be married in the Temple. I will not settle for anything less than a temple marriage. I want to be sealed to you for time and All eternity. I also want you to know that I will be raising a family. There is no question in my mind, I want children. I want to have that unconditional love for my Children like my mother does for me. Be a worthy priesthood holder. There is nothing i want less than to not have the priesthood in my home. Be willing to give blessings when me or any of our children ask. Have a knowledge and Testimony on the Scriptures, because they are the word of God.

If you will do this, there are some thing that I will do for you. I will live worthy, and I will prepare to enter the temple. If the spirit so bids me, I too, will go on a mission. I will stay close to the gospel. And I will prepare to make a keep sacred covenants. I will prepare to be a mother and wife. And I will say yes, if you ask me to marry you. I will firmly support you in all of your callings, no matter how much time they may take you from me. And I will always be there for you. I Love You.

Sincerely Yours,
Heidee

I know that I will get married in the Temple one day. But the one question is.. Which temple? I have always LOVED the San Diego Temple. But.. unless I lived in California.. that's a long shot, even for me. haha. And I've always wanted to not get married in the Salt Lake City temple. I know that's pretty odd, but hey, I like to be original. But the more i look at it, the more I like it. But then, I thought about the Ogden Temple. My parents got married there. Maybe that's where I'll be married. The temple will look different, but really, the ordinance is all the same. Actually, Exactly the same. Will I ever decide where I'll be married? maybe not.. but.. it's nice to know that there is a man out there for me. :)

I'm Diggin'!! :)

"If you ponder the scriptures and begin to do what you covenanted with God to do, I can promise you that you will feel more love for God and more of his love for you." -Henry B. Eyring

I know that my last post was not that long ago, but maybe.. just maybe, i'll begin writing a lot more often than I do. I guess in a sense this is making up for my lack of journal entries. hehe. Anywhom. I decided that I was going to begin Studying my scriptures. I've been really good at Reading my scriptures.. but actually studying them is a totally different thing :). I've kinda had this lack of faith i suppose lately. And i've come to realize that it is probably because i Haven't been reading my scriptures. like.. even reading them. I kept telling myself, *I'll do it tomorrow* But that just kept happening like, everyday. So yesterday when I thought i'll do it tomorrow, something told me. "DUDE! Satan is telling you that, JUST DO IT!" So, i did. And you know what? I started ALL THE WAY OVER! I began in 1 Naphi Chapter 1. Everyone has the first verse like memorized, because we read it everytime we try to read the Book of Mormon and then stop at 2 Nephi. ;) But this time I actually deeply read the first verse.

"I Nephi, having been born of goodly parents, therefore i was taught somewhat in all the learning of my father; and having seen many afflictions in the course of my days, nevertheless, having been highly favored of the Lord in all my days; yeah, having had a great knowledge of the goodness and the mysteries of God, therefore i make a record of my proceedings in my days."

and I noticed that there was a footnote for the word Affliction. Google defines Affliction as "A state of great suffering and distress due to adversity." With adversity being defined as "A State of hardship or difficulty; misfourtue; harsh condtions; hard times" Now is the dictionary usually right? Yes. But this time, I don't agree with Google. I agree with the footnotes, which define affliciton as "Blessing; Gifts of God." Now.. think about it... How true is that? The Hardest times in our lives are really the most beneficial to us! I was on facebook the other day, and one of the memebers of my ward has this quote listed. "whoever said the sun brought happiness hasn't danced in the rain." Although trials are like a storm to our well being, we should learn to dance in the rain! Although times are rough, He will take away all our pain, when He is ready to. That is probably the hardest thing to understand. That we must put our lives on His time and not on our own.

I have a friend named Melissa who we always have random/awakward questions that we ask eachother. :) we also having this inside joke.. "I'm diggin" any time you may hear me say, i'm diggin' know that that means that I am truly, deep down, looking for an answer. Or i guess.. feeling the answer. We were 'diggin' last night on this verse. We together decided that a trial is not an Affliction until you see the blessings and the happiness that comes from them. Pretty neat eh?

Well, with all that being said, i am going to say this I Love Hilary Weeks. I really, really do! Her songs are INCREDIBLE! I was listening to it on the way to work and all of her songs have such power in them! And such Truth! If anyone wants to buy me a CD, i want one of hers :) I have the CD If i only had today. i just can't even start to boast enough about it! Look into her :)

Onto a different subject! I am going to make a priority list! RIGHT NOW :) I need to remind myself what is most important to me! Because.. i've been doing what i wanted, not exactly what i should, or what He would want me to do.

1. Family
2. PrayerScripture Study(church is included in these two!)
3. School
4. Work
5. Friends
6. Myself
   

I know that if i make others my number one priority, That i will feel the blessings All on my own and i will find myself while doing it.

I know that this has been quite the interesting post, but i have been diggin a lot :) And I just want to say right here and right now, That i Love my Family. They ARE the greatest blessing in my life. They bring me so much joy, and so much peace, and so much laughter( even as my mother pulls out a zuccinni she didn't see, that is almost the size of my dog). I love my Friends, both old and young. You have brought me everything i have ever wanted! And i wish that i could spend every free minute that i wasn't with my family, with you. But at some point, we need to remember our education and such. I have been so blessed with friends and family, and i have such a wonderful opportunity in my future! To meet my future Husband, to marry him, and to have my own family. I hope that every person in my life will stay in it! Even if it's just through texting/facebook/email. I love every person who has entered my life.

I am now going to make a goal. "Please don't nag yourself with thoughts of failure. Do not set goals far beyond your capacity to achieve. Simply do what you can, in the best way you know, and the Lord will accept of your effort." -Gordon B. Hinckley. With this quote in mind, i will not set a goal that i cannot achieve. That being said. I will make it to the Celestial Kingdon. And i will get married in the Temple. yep.. i can do that! :)

That is all my dear friends. Hope to talk to you soon. Love you! :)

Just Let Me Cry

So, i have this pretty awesome cd. I mixed the Reflections of Christ Cd and a cd by Hilary Weeks Mixed. One of my favorite songs is entitled Just let me cry. It Chorus goes "But for now, just let me cry, i know it's hard to see. But the pain i feel isn't going away today. So for now just let me cry, until every tear has fallen, don't ask when, and don't ask why, Just Let me Cry." Now.. why do i like this? Not sure. But on some days, the thought just.. connects you know? And so, during a hard time. Which i'm grateful for, i felt this way. That i just wanted to cry and i wanted people to just let me. I have never really understood How powerful crying can be. A true empathetic cry can take away so much pain! And you know who else can do that.. My Savior Jesus Christ. And you wanna know why. He loves me. which is another hilary weeks song, and it's chorus goes like this "Deeper than my heart can hide, stronger than i feel inside, more than i realize, He loves me. Steady as the day goes by, longer than the reach of time, enough to give his life, He loves me." I can not begin to explain how much i am grateful for my Savior. He is ALWAYS there for me! :) I will never be able to repay Him. And the amazing thing is that He doesn't ask me to! How generous is He. :) I Love him. And I KNOW that he loves me. So now as i look back on me dwelling on this mistake that i've made. i looked up some LDS quotes. and i found one, that was JUST for me. "Please don't nag yourself with thoughts of failure. Do not set goals far beyond your capacity to achieve. Simply do what you can do, in the best way you know, and the Lord will accept of your effort."--Gordon B. Hinckley. I know that even though i've hurt someone that i love the most, that i have the DESIRE to do what is right! and to be better. and i know that my Father in Heaven, and my Savior Jesus Christ will look at that desire of my heart, over what i did that was wrong. I love this gospel. And i want to come closer to it! I want to reread the Book Of Mormon, But i don't want to read it.... I was to STUDY it! I AM going to make it to the Celestial Kingdom, I WILL get married in the Temple. And i WILL be with my family.. FOREVER. And i am ETERNALLY Grateful for that! :)

I know this post is a little... well... a LOT random! But it is my thought of the day! :)