3rd Quote of the Rainy days. :)

"If the shoe fits, then just put it on."-Larry Waldron

Man have I learned a lot from this man! And this quote is just what i needed today. This quote has so many meanings. But to me it means that If that shoe fits, put it on, so that you can fix it! Which is exactly what i've been doing the last little while. Fixing a sin that I had done. and you know what, I never wanna do it again. And i just wanna be a 'good girl'. :)

:)

Many a man with life out of tune,

And battered and scarred with sin,

Is auctioned cheap to the thoughtless crowd,

Much like the old violin.

But the Master comes,

and the foolish crowd

Never can quite understand

The worth of a soul

and the change that's wrought

By the touch of the Master's Hand.

Memories. :) :)

"God gave us memories that we might have roses in December." -J.M. Barrie

Have you ever had that day where randomly you remembered this amazing event in your life. Well, that happened to me this morning. And it was almost as if I was meant to remember it. Like it was almost an answer to prayers. I honestly have no idea why i remembered it.

But, earlier this year, about.... February. My YW had a winter campout. (it almost seems weird that I am going that back in time, but bear with me.) We usually go to a Cabin in bear lake, and that is where we went. It's just an overnighter thing. Usually we have dinner, play games, go to bed. And then do some secret thing in the morning of the next day. Well this one was a little different. Our theme was D.O.T.S Depending on the Savior. Which is such a great theme and i loved it. :) Saturday morning they have us get up and get ready to go outside. Now, the year before we had gone sledding, which because of some crashes i'm sure we weren't doing that again. But we go outside, and are just sitting there, kind of odd. Then Brother Hendrick's came out and was talking to us, asking us our favorite food and stuff. (that's not weird at all....) haha. And then Dani Woodward came, and she said "Heidee will you come with me?" (why am i always first.?) She took me around the side of the house, gave me a recycleable grocery bag and told me to follow the trail. Along the way, there were some of my yw leaders. And they would stop me and told me not at any time could i set down my bag. Then they would proceed to tell sins that i had done(metaphorically of course) and would give me a can of soup(which said sin on it). Up to about 10 sins and it really wasn't that heavy. I was feeling pretty good, well, i mean some of the things they said really hit me, but i felt like i could do it. Then i got to a group of 2 leaders, and it was the hardest time for me. I didn't not want to disappoint either of them. They both were crying as they read the sins to me (which i later found out they only cried for me, because they loved me). But I had to keep going. By the end I could hardly lift the bag. And my fingers were going numb. And luckily, i was near the end. My YW president at the time said, you've almost made it. Go to the house. After my shoes were taken off, i walked into the cabin. and my Bishop was standing there. He took the bag from me and said, Hi come with me. We walked up the stairs.

And at the top was this picture.

But bigger than i had ever seen.

The Bishop then told me to lay my sins at the Savior's feet.

So Powerful.

I know that i was supposed to remember this. Because i don't have to carry my burden's, The Savior will. :)

Little Victories!

LOVE this!!!!

"This time, I'll be sailin

No more bailing boats for me

I'll be out here on the sea

Just my confidence and me

And i'll be awful sometimes

Weakened to my knees

But I'll Learn to get by

On the little victories

This time, I'll have no fear

I'll be standing strong and tall

Turn my back towards them all

And I'll be awful sometimes

Weakened to my knees

I'll learn to get by

And I'll learn to get by

On the little victories

And if the world decides to catch up with me

It's a little victory.

They Love me, because I feed them Ice Cream :)

All i can say is that i am one lucky gal. I had the most amazing experience this past sunday that i thought i had to tell you. This past sunday I went to a fireside at the Ogden Institute to hear Elder David A. Bednar speak. That is right, he was there live and in the flesh. And I got to be there. I am so grateful that Lacey pushed me to go. Because for a minute there i wasn't going to (how stupid! i know!) But it honestly was one of the greatest things that i have ever been to. For sure the most spiritual things i have experienced in a long time. The meeting of course started out with a song, which i have not heard that many people sing loud and proud, quite possibly ever in my entire life! Then Sister Bednar spoke for a short moment, and it was very good. Then Elder Bednar began to get up to speak, but then Sister Bednar stole the microphone and proceeded to tell us how well Elder Bednar was with their grandkids. Which was funny in and of itself, but then Elder Bednar said this, 'My grandkids love me for one reason, they love me because i feed them ice cream.' :) haha. He said, i take them to the grocery store and they can pick out whatever kind of ice cream they want, and how every much they want. Then we eat ice cream before during and after Breakfast, before during and after lunch, before during and after dinner, and when they wake up in the middle of the nigh saying they can't sleep i say great lets go have some ice cream. :) I was bustin a gut! :)

But now to the more serious part of things. :)

Elder Bednar said, what would an apostle say to a college student. He said, i decided that i would have a Q&A session with myself in order to help all of you.

1. How do we find balance in our lives?

answer: you don't. It's not possible. Because anytime that you are focused on something it is just logical that you are neglecting something else at the same time. With this he used one of the greatest analogies i've ever heard. A Chinese Acrobat. when they are balancing plates, it is impossible for all of the places they are balancing to be going the same RPM at the same moment. It's impossible without someone else helping them turn the plates.So what we need to figure out is how many plates we can handle. And just be sure not to drop any of our plates.

2. How do i improve my dating skills?

Answer: First off, get rid of any of these 'lists' you've created. Even if you find this perfect person, what makes you think they are really going to be attracted to you by having this list? (we all began to laugh which proceeded to make him say[i'm not intending to be funny, i'm serious!]) :) hahaha. He said that you take that list, and you make yourself that person that you want.

3. How do i recognize the spirit?

Answer. There are 3 ways that we feel the spirit, or receive revelation.

The first is like

sitting in a dark room and having someone turn on the light. There is that instant overwhelming feeling of light. These are the most common experiences that we hear about in Fast and Testimony Meeting. Not that this is a bad thing, but it becomes discouraging to those that have not had those experiences. But it is important to remember that these type of experiences are more Rare than common.

The next type is like getting up at 4 in the morning to watch the sun rise. You can tell when it is beginning to lighten up, But it is gradual, it takes time for the light to become full.

But there is that distinct moment when the light does happen. There is an exact time when the sun rises.

These experiences are more Common than rare.

But the third kind is more like the sun rising on an overcast day. You can tell that it indeed is daytime. But you truly

dont' know when the sun actually rose. It is kind of like dew on the grass. It happens gradually, but you don't know

when exactly the dew was formed. You don't go out and say oh look the dew just came out. It takes time, but it isn't distinct of when exactly it formed. These are the Most common of them all. We aren't exactly sure when our testimony was formed. And that leads us to wonder if we really have a testimony. Just because we don't know when it happened, doesn't mean it's not real.

4.How can i tell the difference between if it is the Spirit talking, or just me telling me what i want to hear?

Answer: 'Quit fretting over it and just be good'

God doesn't put us exactly where we need to go. He leads us. And ultimately we choose.

The most important thing that we can do is just remember to try our best to be a good girl(or/boy).

That is what Heavenly Father really wants.

I am so grateful that i got to hear this fireside. It is exactly what i needed.

I love you all. :)

I love......

Once again, it's late. I really shouldn't keep making my habit be that i only post either at work, or late at night...

we'll see if i can't change that. Anyway. This post in dedicated to my good friend, best. Although she has been in my life for many years, and i may not have recognized it at first, She is my best friend. Her name is Melissa Nelson.

Not only do we have conversations, we have conversations that are hilarious (i.e. today we were talking about school. And somehow it lead to her little sister saying 'lets hit her'... long story short. made me attempt to say 'I have short term memory loss, it runs in my family, at least i think it does... hmmm.. where are they?' But instead this is what i said 'i have short term memory, it runs in the family, at least i think it does, hmm where are they?' Needless to say we were both crying we were laughing so hard) normal (i.e. boys suck)poetic (i.e. we had a whole white board that was our board and we wrote all over) serious(i.e. most any conversation about the church is with her) and loveable (i.e. well.... i love her... maybe she loves me.;])

And you know what makes it even better? Is that she's always been there for me. I've been a jerk sometimes, i'm not gonna lie, and for some reason she stuck by me. We even spent every last day of school together in high school. How many people can say that?

And deep down, i've never admit this really. But i admire her. She is so strong in the gospel. Something that i wish i could be. Her trials have been far harder then mine. And she can still get up in the morning. And she is so humble too. If you ask what you can do, she'll say just listen to me.

Which.. that's a great statement. If there is anything you can do for someone. Listening might be the best thing for them.

I am ashamed that it has taken me this long to realize how fortunate i have been to have her as a friend. I have indeed taken it for granted. But as high school ended

and our lives went on. She has always been there.

As a matter a fact, she is one of two friends i have hung out with since High school let out.

She still talks to me. No matter how crazy i may be. I really don't deserve her friendship. But for now the least amount of gratitude that i can show for her is this. Melissa Nelson, i love you.

And i hope you know that i will always be here for you. And even though i don't

deserve it,i am glad you are not only my friend, but my best friend.

Love, Heidee (heedee, heids, heido..etc ;])

Perfect... :)

"In a world that keeps turnin' and movin' so fast. When you can't hold onto nothin' and nothin' seems to last. it's so good to know that love still remains. Ain't you glad that somethings never change." - Sara Evans

Wow has my mind been going all bazako lately!

There is so much to think about and so many things to decide! It makes me wonder if life will ever become any easier! haha even though, deep down inside, i know it wont! haha

Oh man where do i even begin! I guess i will start with the camping trip!. Yes, yes i shall. Every year me and my family go

camping with my Aunt Denese and Uncle Jeff to my great aunt nanny's

property in Grantsville. :) it's

really nice and SOOOOOO fun! We get to shoot guns (as much as we want) and ride our 4 wheelers! Like no one is watching! :0)This time some of my Aunt Nanny's friends came up to camp as well. And so we had extra 4 wheelers. Me, my mom,my brother, and my sister decided to go to the forest reserve. It was honestly one of the prettiest places i have ever been! and that's saying something! ;) We had to turn around because the roads were getting too skinny and it was WAY muddy. But it was so fun! :) I was truly grateful for the beauty that Heavenly Father has given me. :)

Sometimes it just seems like everything goes wrong. Like you're missing something. Well that's kinda how it's like for me,

or how it was anyway. It seemed like I was standing still. If that at all makes sense. Sure i was doing a ton of things, chasing my tail really. But i still felt like i wasn't moving towards anything. That i was staying where i was. And then something amazing happened. It may seem like nothing but it was a lot to me. In short, a member of my Bishopric told me to seriously contemplate going to the Singles Ward. I have been so hesitant for the last little while, because I don't like the unknown. I like feeling somewhat comfortable.I have never thought that i would have to treat the gospel like i do the rest of my life.

Jumping into the unknown. But the more i thought about the singles ward, the more comforting it became. It could be such a beautiful thing. I've kinda felt like i didn't have any friends lately. And the ones that still talked to me, i never had the time to actually spend time with them, they go to different schools than me. Then i realized that i could make tons of friends in the singles ward. Heavenly Father always looks out for us. He knows our needs and makes

us pursue our way to solve them. And i have to remind myself that 'every little piece to the puzzle doesn't always fit perfect.'-Sara Evans

Last night i was reminded how much i love the Primary Hymn 'A Child's Prayer.' If you don't know that those words are true. I would encourage

you to find out. :)

A Wonderful Day in the Neighborhood! :)

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn life around."-Leo Buscaglia

It is WAY past my bedtime.

But I need to get these things down or I will forget, and well, this is faster than my journal.

Today I spent the day with one of my best friends.

This picture is super old and a picture of a picture.. but..well... you get the picture! :) hahaha.

She moved to Kaysville a while ago and we've tried to stay in touch.

My wonderful night began at this building.

Oh Man do I love going to the temple.

I always get amazing insights that I wouldn't get anywhere else.

As we were sitting waiting to do baptisms, I began to do the usual grab a book and start reading.

Then i decided that I would look for answers to question that I've been having.

So I thought, what questions have I had and the FIRST thing that came to my mind was Patriarchal Blessing. I need to get my patriarchal blessing, but all other thoughts are going to be kept to myself. :)

Of course me and my friend went to her house, ate, played, talked, etc! :)

Today was the best day of my life. Well of my College Life.

Who would've thought that blue salt water taffy's would've added to the stack?

But they did.

Well night has past and now I say goodbye.

Thank you for all of the good moments to this wonderful day!

2nd Quote of the rainy Days. :)

"Why don't you ever make the bed in the morning? The Same Reason I don't tie my shoes after i take them off."-Jim Gaffigan

Oh man this makes me BUST a GUT!

hahaha. I'm just tellin you that I have been trying to tell my mom why i don't make my bed, and i heard this comedian say this and i was just like. In Your FACE! hahaha. That is why i don't make the bed in the morning! It's SOOOOOO redundant! He also talks a lot about Ketchup and Bacon and Camping! :) OH man. I LOVE Jim Gaffigan! Look him UP! :)

I Know That My Redeemer Lives

This again is another churchy post about institute. But I have received so much inspiration because of this class in which I am and will be eternally grateful!

Today Someone's future mother in law came and sat in on our class. Brother Barlow's was of 'honoring her' was to have her choose her favorite Hymn. And she chose 'I Know that my Redeemer Lives.' She said it was her favorite, which Brother Barlow said it was also his. And to tell you the truth it's probably mine. It brings back so many memories. To name one, Youth Conference 2009,

when 8 youth on the way back from the Manti Pageant, fell silent when listening the the Reflections of Christ CD. Our favorite songs.... "Come thou Fount of Every Blessing." and "I Know That My Redeemer Lives." That has honestly been one of the Most SPIRITUAL experiences I have ever had in my Life! This experience lead to inspiration to sing a 6-part I Know My Redeemer Lives.

I could go on for hours of experiences that help me know this statement, but for now I will say. I KNOW MY REDEEMER LIVES!

1st quote of the rainy days :)

"If you ever feel that Heavenly Father doesn't love you, you know exactly where that's coming from"-Brother Waldron

This quote just makes me so happy on the inside. I was so blessed to have Brother Waldron as a seminary teacher. But something else i found is that that CLASS was such a blessing! I got so much out of it because of the input that everyone had :) But i think this quote is almost self explanatory, but it is true. If you ever feel

like Heavenly Father doesn't love you, it is NOT coming from Heavenly Father.. He loves you, and he ALWAYS will and if you don't know that, i challenge you to find that out, RIGHT NOW! :)

Swim

You've gotta swim, swim for your life

Swim for the music that saves you

When you're not so sure you'll survive

You gotta swim and swim when it hurts

The whole world is watching

You haven't come this far to fall off the earth

The currents will pull you away from your love

Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave begging to tear down the dawn

Memories like bullets, they fired at me from a gun

Crack in the armor, yeah

I swim for brighter days despite the absence of sun

Choking on salt water

I'm not giving in, I swim

You gotta swim for nights that won't end

Swim for your family as your lovers, your sisters

And brothers, and friends

Yeah, you gotta swim through wars without cause

Swim for the lost politicians

Who don't see their greed as a flaw

The currents will pull us away from our love

Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave begging to tear down the dawn

Memories like bullets, they fired at me from a gun

A crack in the armor, yeah

I swim for brighter days despite the absence of sun

Choking on salt water

I'm not giving in, well, I'm not giving in, I swim.

You gotta swim, swim in the dark

There's no shame in drifting

Feed the tide shifting and wait for the spark

Yeah, you gotta swim, don't let yourself sink

Just find the horizon

I promise you, it's not as far as you think

The currents will drag us away from our love

Just keep your head above

Just keep your head above, swim

Just keep your head above, swim, swim

Just keep your head above, swim.

Jack's Mannequin 'Swim'