{Possessive}

Have you ever had something, or someone, that you felt was yours and you didn't want to lose them? I have.

As a matter of fact, my best friend, Michaela, is leaving on a mission in a week. And I must say, that I have become rather possessive of her and I don't want her to leave. The thought of not being able to call her up, or watch a movie with her, or go out to eat at Moore's with her for 18 months is depressing really. haha. 

When I think about this. I remember my relationship with my Heavenly Father and my Savior, Jesus Christ. They have the same feelings towards me as I do towards Michaela.   They don't want to see me sad or falter away from their path for me. I know that they will help me through the next 18 months. And I know that Michaela is doing what her Heavenly Father wants her to. 

So. While I remain home, and Michaela is in Iowa, I know that God will be watching over us. If not because He would be anyway. But because we will be praying for each other to succeed and to have His guidance in our lives. 

I will feel eternally blessed to have Michaela as a friend. She has been an influence on my life that I could not have dreamed of. I can't wait to see the success and experiences she has as she serves the Lord. 

My advice to anyone that is struggling with losing someone, even for a short time, is to remember our Heavenly Fathers plan for us. And to pray to him for comfort and advice. Because He can send us what we need as long as we but ask. 

{Shenanigans}

Summer is an odd time, isn't it?

I don't know about you, but I feel that I spend my whole school year looking forward to summer break, and then summer break looking forward to the school year..... I know, it sounds crazy, even to me.

Much isn't going on with my life. I'm just watching it fly by. But. I do have a few funny moments that have happened to me in the past week. 

For those of you that do not know, I am a Primary Teacher. I teach the 9 year olds.

I must begin by saying {and I'll ask for forgiveness beforehand} that I have not been a huge fan of being a primary teacher. I think this began because I felt that I wasn't "called of God" to that calling, because every young single adult in a home ward gets that calling. But now I will say, {this will require no forgiveness} that I love it!

My nine year olds are a hoot and a half. Seriously. They say the darndest things. For example, My mother {we partner teach} was telling a story about how her tomato plants died. And Kaden said "they were froze by ghosts!" hahaha. Then after the story was over he said "Moral of the story, Ghost freeze things, and bananas are good"

Where do they come up with this stuff???

Anyway. In singing time, they had all of the female teachers come up {For mothers day} and each of their class members would ask a question, and then they would ask what your favorite primary song was and the whole room would sing it. The singing time leader, Marla, is my next-door neighbor. So when I came up she asked the primary kids "Now, is Sister Miller a mother?" and amongst all of the "no's" this one voice could be heard that said "Well, Possibly" HAHAHAHAHA! Seriously! Where do they come up with this stuff???

Anyway. Those were the funny things. 

Today in institute the teacher asked us "If you could describe your trust in the Lord as a symbol, what would it be"

That is my question for you today.

This was my answer.

Mine is like a boomerang. 

I hold it dear to me, but sometimes I feel that I can handle a situation on my own, so I throw the boomerang, but it always comes back to me.

Anyways. Have a good day! 

Until Next Time

Peace & Blessings! :)

{Opinions}

I would just like to start of by saying that I in no way intend to offend anyone. These are my own personal feelings, which have taken me a long time to form. I am probably going to have to "Frankincense" this, but I hope it makes sense and gives people a way of looking at things. 

I am Mormon. I know it, I live it, I love it! If there is one thing that I know I can count on, it is the church! It is always there for me when I fall. It is always true. It doesn't change. The Doctrine is always the same. Jesus Christ is always the head of the church, and He ALWAYS will love me!

For those of you who didn't know, I am a social work major. I love to help people, and to help them feel that they can be and are successful. With my firm beliefs of the church it has been difficult to sit through some of the Social Work classes. I agree with many of the concepts, but I have those few that I firmly stand with the church on. This is difficult, because I fear that it will interfere with my future career goals. So what do I do? I am going to do what I would ask any of my clients to do, explain to me how you feel. 

So this is me. This is how I feel. 

Marriage is between a man and a woman. The purpose of life is to become like God. And God teaches that marriage it between a man and a woman. I strongly believe that Heavenly Father is married to my Heavenly Mother. Why would I want to help others not become as them? I accept and love those who feel differently. They are some of the most kind and accepting people I have met and I pray that they will have the strength to live in a country such as ours.  God's laws don't change. And we can't change them in order to make us feel better for our "sin". 

We can all have different opinions and that's okay.

Many people that I have conversations with about this issue, will say to me "how is it fair for your church to say that those who have same gender attraction can be members as long as they don't act on those feelings? When all of those who can get married, have that blessing of being able to express their feeling."

Here is my answer. 

I have a dear friend who is single. It is not "fair" to her that she can't have children because she hasn't been asked to get married. But she is held to that standard, just as I am. I could go have sex or get pregnant or do anything that I really wanted to. But I am willing to follow God and what HE has taught ME. I have to learn how to be who God wants me to be. It is something that I will constantly have to work on. 

Just as those who have save gender attraction can choose to follow their own desires, I can follow my own, which are to follow God and come back to Him. 

I hope this hasn't utterly offended anyone.

I love you all.

Until Next Time...

Peace & Blessings.

{Sanctuary}

I feel so blessed the past couple of days. No joke. I am so grateful for all of the wonderful things that the Lord has placed in my life.

I am going to talk to you today about one.

That one thing, is Institute.

President Thomas S. Monson said on April 21, 2009

"If you are a single college student, I ask you to make participation in institute a priority. Married students and other young adults are also welcome and encouraged to attend. Think of it. Friends will be made, the Spirit will be felt, and faith will be strengthened. I promise you that as you participate in institute and study the scriptures diligently, your power to avoid temptation and to receive direction of the Holy Ghost in all you do will be increased. Divine favor will attend those who humbly seek it. That is the promise which I leave with you."

This was a very powerful statement that was made right before I was at the age when I would go to Institute. . . . Looking at that fact right now makes me smile at how the Lord placed that in my life at that time for a reason.

I can attest to all of you, that this is all true. I have experienced this exact promise to the T. I know what it feels like to go to a building and know that you will make a friend and keep those friends. That you will learn of His Gospel and feel of His sweet Spirit. I know that with the help of our own personal scripture study that these things can be even greater. 

Even with this knowledge, there is still more as to why I would say that this building, The Institute Building, is a sanctuary. It is a home away from home. 

The other day,  a friend and I were sitting one some random chairs by the teachers offices. I tend to like them because if I actually have something to do, the noise level is very limited down there. I had been reading in Hosea and found a great scripture that talked of Heavenly Father being the father of our spirits. I then was telling my friend, who recently came back to the church, that I had heard that we were "intelligence's" before  we were spirits, but I couldn't remember who told me, or where, if at all, in the scriptures it was found. An institute teacher whom I had had for committee before was walking down the hall, so I just asked him. And he not only explained that answer, but gave me many more insights for the gospel that I had never heard before. He talked to me and my friend for at least an hour, if not longer. Then, later, a different teacher came out and was "test questioning" us as an anti-mormon would. 

Where. On earth. would this happen, besides at the Institute? Everyone there, really truly cares and wants to share the gospel with everyone, but especially those who desire to know of it!

Thank you, Heavenly Father, for allowing me to participate in something so great. 

Until next time...

Peace & Blessings. :)

{Smart}

Sometimes, I feel really smart. I'm not gonna lie! But I had to share this thought that I had.

So, last Sunday was our ward conference at Church. So the Bishop and the Stake President spoke. I am probably one of a few in our stake that have known the Stake President my entire life. Honestly, I bet my family is closer to him than our own Bishop. I love Bishop Johnson and am not belittling him in any way. But "Back in the day" before my Bishop even really lived in our ward boundaries, my dad was in the Bishopric with my now Stake President's Father. Because of how long my family has lived in the same house, and with this part of Layton basically being a "Love Family Reunion" we seem to know them pretty well. Because of this, I have enjoyed listening to him as a stake president. Just because I know him on such a personal level as well. 

Anyway, during President Loves' talk, he quoted this scripture found in 

St Luke 22:31

"And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, Behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat:"

But the JST is very important here where it says "Satan hath desired you, that he may sift the children of the kingdom as wheat"

One cool thing to think about is house our names should fit into that scripture. I should read it "And the Lord said, Heidee, Heidee, Behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat."

I love this, it shows such protection from the Lord.

But here is where my wheels started turning, and I had a "lightbulb" moment. 

The Lord is referring to us as wheat here. What is the first other scripture that you think of when you hear the word "wheat" 

For me, it is the Parable of the Wheat and the Tares.

{Quick overview of the parable}

A farmer's servants plant a field of wheat. And enemy comes in the night and plants tares in with the wheat. Because you can't tell the difference between the two until they are basically grown, they don't notice. Then when the wheat and tares are mixed together, the servants want to dig out the tares. But because of the damage that it would cause to the wheat they are instructed to wait until harvest day and pick the wheat out first, and then the tares. This is a big 'ol reference to the second coming of Jesus Christ.

But hear this.

The Lord says that Satan is going to sift us like wheat. When sifting flour, we are letting all the fine and "good" pieces fall through the sifter while the "bad" stuff all remains on top. 

This is what I think. Satan isn't going to try and change us into a tare. He is just going to find all the bad stuff that could be in the wheat and have us become that bad stuff.

It is important for us to use the Lord and His atonement so that we can make it back and truly 

"Pray always, that you may come off conqueror; yea, that you may conquer Satan, and that you may escape the hands of the servants of Satan that do uphold his work."  (D&C 10:5)

Until Next Time...

Peace & Blessings. :)

{What is this??}

So. I just have to say. I have no idea what has happened. I don't remember Utah randomly being moved to the Midwest. But, why did we have the freezing rain storm? I don't find it funny. Actually, I find it quite scary. Ha. So get home from school yesterday, and I had no real problems with the roads or walking around campus all day. But then, I go to pull into my driveway, and my car won't go up. So i'm like, FINE and park in the street, which is way less icy. But then as i try to walk up my driveway in wedge heel boots. I realize that isn't going to happen very easily. So. I take my shoes off. Successfully walk up the driveway, and walk into my house with freezing cold feet.
Such is life, right?
Until Next Time....
Peace & Blessings

{It's smee!}

Before I start this post, I found this title, very cleaver! hahaha! From Hook?? So funny! :) Anyway, I have decided a new post "series", for lack of better word, that I am going to write. :) This is going to be posts about me. I know I have written a few in the past, but these are going to be more "Random Facts." I came up with the idea because at work, I would say "random fact number 32 about Heidee."
Then, I thought, hum, I should actually make a list! hahaha. But of course, I can't think of everything at once. So here is a first few that I can think of right now. :)

Random Facts of Heidee :)

1.  I do not like Chocolate covered cherries.

2.  I do not like cinnamon. Not even cinnamon bears.

3.  The only mint chocolate that I like are Andie's mints

(Apparently chocolate sounds good. ;))

4. I am no officially a Psych-o-holic! Seriously, it's ridiculous!

5.   I could eat my weight in funyuns. mmm, delish!

Well, those are the few today.

Toodles.

(Speaking of Hook.)

Until Next Time..

Peace & Blessings.