{Trust}

As many of you know, I recently got a new job. And it has been an amazing change for me. 

But I haven't taken the opportunity to show the amazing tender mercy that the Lord has shown for me since I changed jobs. 

Let me explain..

When I had first got the feeling that I should look for a new job, I fought the feeling. I had applied to get into the MSW graduate school program at the University of Utah and I was supposed to find out if I got in within a couple weeks. I knew it would be what was best for me, but I am definitely afraid of the unknown. The thought of being the new girl all over again wasn't something that I was prepared for. 

I prayed about it, and the Lord and I came to the same decision. If I got into grad school, I wouldn't look for a new job. It wouldn't really make sense to get a job for a few months. If I got in, I would quit when school started. 

If I didn't get into grad school, then I would get a new job. 

I was very happy with the decision. 

It made an exceeding amount of logical sense.
I could wait out two weeks to know if I should make a major change in my life. 

Just a few days after I had talked this decision over with the Lord, I had a strange, curious urge to look and see if there were any job postings. 

To this day, I have no idea why I did it. 

It must have been from Heaven, because I was just trying to survive a couple of weeks. 

My current job's listing was up and was the only SSW position anywhere near my home. 

The second I saw it, I knew that I would get the position if I applied. 

Unlike when I applied for my last job, I had excellent experience now. 

I was confused. Should I apply for this job? The Lord and I together had made a plan. 

This was not part of the plan!!!!

I decided to apply for the job. 

Within a day, I received a call for an interview. 

I went in for the interview and felt great about it. I talked about grad school and if they would be willing to work around my schedule. We talked about money. It was an excellent interview.

Later on that same day, I received news that I hadn't got into grad school, but that I could be placed on their wait list. 

I was devastated. 

I am infuriated. 

I was hurt. 

I remember sitting in my office, complaining to my Father in Heaven.

Saying "If this is some sort of sick joke to get me to quit my job, I don't think it's funny!"

(a bit dramatic, I know. But would you expect anything less from me?" :)

I was offered the position and I decided to take the job. 

I had a long month of the notice I was required to give at my last job. 

And then I began to love my change and be so grateful to my Heavenly Father for helping get me into such a great environment and such a great thing for my own well being. 

I was again playing the wait game with grad school.
As time went on, I got less and less hopeful that I would get a spot. 

I had decided that it would be okay, I could work for a year and save some money.
Maybe go on a trip to somewhere exotic. 

Who knew. 

Then I found out that a spot had opened up for me to go to grad school!

I was SO excited!

I was SO happy!

I was SO grateful!

And then one day, I made the connection of how intricate that Lord's hand in my life was. 

He had done exactly what was best for me. 

I had learned to Trust Him, even when it was hard. 

At times I didn't even realize how much trust I was putting in Him.

He had done exactly what I needed in order to do things to better my own life. 

As a social worker, I spend so much time focusing on the well being on others, that sometimes I care more about helping them than myself. 

I am so grateful that my Heavenly Father helped me get to where I am today. Even though it may have felt like a bump on the road, sometimes a giant turn in my plan, He definitely did exactly what would make me improve my own life.

With more and more experiences like theses,

I'm sure that I'm not running this show. :)

Until Next Time...

Peace & Blessings. :)