{Future Children}

{Future Children}

I know that I haven't met you yet, but I feel as if I already know you.

I can remember being you. Being five years old, not wanting to change my clothes before I ran outside to play.

I can remember aspiring to ride a bike, and being too impatient to wait for my father to teach me to ride a two wheeler.

I can remember not asking to go out and play, going outside of my play-zone, and in turn receiving the consequences.

I can remember getting in a fight with my best friend/next-door neighbor, swearing that I would never play with him again, and yet playing with them that night.

I can remember starting 7th grade. Being thrilled to remember my locker combination.

I can remember my last day of 9th grade, sad to see my best friend moving, and sad to see my favorite school year ending.

I can remember High School, the good times, and the bad. The happy and the sad.

I can remember looking down on myself, and I can remember the joy of knowing what life is really all about.

I just want to let you know, that although life throws many curve balls, that you can ALWAYS take a swing! There is NOTHING that you can't accomplish in life! Remember you're Savior, and everything that He has done for you.

And last, but not least, of all, I Love You. And I ALWAYS will!!! There is nothing you could confess that would make me love you any less!! Know that I am always here for you!

Love Always,

Heidee Miller (your mommy)

[This was inspired by a post by my dear friend, Alyssa Nilson] :)

P.P.F.

"The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be." -Marcel Pagnol.

I was thinking the other day about how much I miss being a kid. That there were so many good things going on in my life back then. But then I thought of something. Why is it that we look at the past, and wish that we were there, but we look at the future and fear it? That past was once our future.. I think that we all need to realize what we have going for us at the moment, because when we get so caught up in what we did, or what we will do, we are missing what we are doing. Living.

"The distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly persisten illusion."-Albert Einstein.

J.O.Y. :)

I feel like I have had so many opportunities to feel joy in my life these past few weeks. :) The word joy has always been one that I looked at a little different then others. I had a wonderful lesson in yw on this word. That it was more of an acronym than a word. J.O.Y. Jesus, Others, Yourself. That in order to find true joy you must focus on people in that order. Jesus, Others, Yourself. It's amazing how true this is. When you put Christ first in your life, you are just so happy.

I had the opportunity to go to a Christmas party for my YSA ward today, although it was mostly fun and games, we did have a spiritual ending. I am so glad that I decided that I should go. There are so many people there that help me feel the spirit and learn more about the gospel.

I also had the opportunity to serve a family.. :) I am so glad that I could do something to help them in any way.

And lastly, I have done something recently that has helped me. :) well. A couple things actually. I have been kinda hesitant to hang out with some of my old friends. It seems that they have formed this bond that I missed the opportunity to be a part of. An opportunity that I would do anything to change. And it is totally my fault. They invited me to so many things, and yet most of the time I would say no. Sometimes having a real reason, and others just kinda wanting to be alone. But have you ever felt like you really really wanted to be in that close friendship you see others have, but been afraid to do something, because of fear of being left out. But I tried and solved that, I hung out with two of my good friends. And I had such a good time. I hope that we will spend much much more time together. :)

The next thing i did was i signed up to sing in the ogden institute choir, to sing in the choir for the CES fireside. :) and man are those lyrics powerful. I thought that i would share them with you, they mean to world to me. :)

Be Thou My Vision

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;

Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.

Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,

Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Though my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;

I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;

Thou my great Father, and I Thy true son;

Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Riches I heed not, nor man'y empty praise,

Thou mine inheritance, now and always;

Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,

High King of Heaven, my Treasure thou art.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fights;

Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;

Thou my soul's Shelter, and Thou my high Tower;

Raise Thou me heavenward, O Pow'r, of my pow'r.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,

May I reach Heav'n's joys, O bright Heaven's Sun!

Heart of my own hear, whate'er befall,

Still be my vision, O ruler of all.

4th Quote of the Rainy days... :)

"Remember, 8:30."-Kelly Baldwin.

I love this woman! :) She has taught me so much in so little time! :)
But this quote is something i have remembered so many times. And it has real meaning to it.

Have you ever been upset about something so bad, that it almost consumed your life? Like it was all you could think about. Well. that's what was going on with me when Kelly told me this.

Everytime you think about it, just push it out of your mind and tell yourself i'll think about it at 8:30.. Then when 8:30 comes. You can laugh, cry, yell, think, and talk. But only at 8:30... the first day it may take two hours. but the second day it might take 1 hours and 55 minutes. And slowly over time you won't need your 8:30 time anymore.

I cannot express how grateful i have been for this advice! Kelly Baldwin is truly smart.

So the next time you are consumed in your own thoughts, remind yourself.. 8:30. :)

Hymns of Gratitude.

Or gratitude of hymns rather. I was on my way to work this morning, i have an iPod jack... thing... so i can listen to my iPod through my radio.. anyway. And my fathers favorite hymn came on.
I Believe in Christ.

I believe in Christ; he is my King!
With all my heart to him i'll sing;
I'll raise my voice in praise and joy,
In grand amens my tongue employ.
I believe in Christ; he is God's Son.
On earth to dweel his sould did come.
He healed the sick; the dead he raised.
Good works were his; his name be praised.

I believe in Christ; oh blessed name!
As Mary's Son he came to reign
'Mid mortal men, his earthly kin,
To save them from the woes of sin.
I belive in Christ, who marked the path,
Who did gain all his Father hath,
Who said to men, "Come, follow me,
That ye my friends, with God may be."

I believe in Christ- my Lord, my God!
My feet he plants on gospel sod.
I'll worship him with all my might;
He is the source of truth and light.
I believe in Christ, he ransoms me.
From Satan's grasp he sets me free,
And I shall live with joy and love
In his eternal courts above.

I believe in Christ; he stands supreme!
From him I'll gain my fondest dream;
And while I strive through grief and pain,
His voice is heard: "Ye shall obtain."
I belive in Christ; so come what may,
With him I'll stand in that great day
When on this earth he comes again
To rule among the sonds of men.

Wow... Bruce R. McConkie really knew that i would like this song on this very day. That last verse is incredible!

And again i thought of MY favorite hymn, well... I have many. But i love
I Know that my Redeemer Lives.

I know that my Redeemer lives.
What comfort his sweet sentence give!
He lives, he live, who once was dead.
He lives, my ever living Head.
He lives to bless me with his love.
He lives to plead for me above.
He lives my hungry sould to feed.
He lives to bless in time of need.

He lives to grant me rich supply.
He lives to guide me with his eye.
He lives to comfort me when faint.
He lives to hear my soul's complaint.
He lives to silence all my fears.
he lives to wipe away my tears.
He lives to calm my troubled heart.
he lives all blessing to impart.

He lives, my kind, wise heav'nly Friend.
he lives and loves me to the end.
He lives, and while he lives, I'll sing.
He lives, my Prophet, Priest, and King.
He lives and grants me daily breath.
He lives, and I shall conquer death.
He lives my mansion to prepare.
he lives to bring me safely there.

He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, Sweet the joy this sentence gives:
"I know that my Redeemer lives!"
He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
I know that my Redeemer lives!

This time it was Samuel Medley. :) I love these men. So inspired!

I am so grateful for these hymns! And that they can bless me when i need a lift :)

Dreams... to a blog. :)

Sometimes i wonder if my blog is a waste of time. Well, it is. But that's besides the point. It's almost like i'm talking to nothing. It's not like I have a real 'point' to my blog. You know, there are some that have an exact thing that they are writing about. But me being the queen of random, mine has no point. But then I began to think about dreams, not dreams about the future, but dreams as in asleep and dreaming.

Dreaming seems to have no point. But, it does. You are working through your thoughts of the day, which is why most dreams are bizzarr, or at least, are jumping from place to place. And I began to think that my blog is my way of dreaming. Not that i don't have dreams, but this is my way of working through my problems. Because, just like in 2 Nephi 4. Sometimes you can talk your way out of a bad day. You can talk your way into just about anything. Which is just why i blog. I am going to work through my problems. or just give you a good laugh. Either way. It works.

Food for thought of the day.
We all have regrets, but the important part is to have worked through your regrets with our Heavenly Father. :)
Although we all sin, even after we repent, there will always be a scar on our soul, but it is there because we need to remember to never do it again. :) woot! :) I love the gospel. it is true! :)

A New Path for the New Journey

It's pretty interesting how things work out in our lives. But I now have a stronger testimony in how our Heavenly Father knows the desires of our heart. I cannot believe how things came to play.

The other day i was talking to one of my friends. And i told them how I hated not having a calling, that it made me feel worthless. That i like to have responsibility. Then on sunday, Brother Baldwin pulls me aside, and guess what? I have a calling. I am now a member of the Family Home Evening Committee. This in turn lead me to decide to go to fhe. (go figure right?)

And i had SO much fun! More fun than i've had in days!!! I know that the Lord wants me to be part of family home evening. And to make some new friends.

P.S. best moment of the night- 'No. I blog' :) Love ya Erin van Komen! :)