Doesn't it seem like sometimes everything seems to be going wrong? I sure believe so. It's been a long few weeks. With many good things happening along the way. But doesn't it seem like when we are having a major change in our life that we begin to fog our judgment; and when that happens, that is when Satan decides to attack? Well that has been happening to me.
Starting college has been a major stress, and excitement. I have been clouded over by this sin that I realized I've done in the past, but never thought about until now? Isn't that so weird? It took me almost a year and 4 Bishop interviews to feel bad for it? And so with all of this change occurring, and then remembering a past sin, Satan saw me as a fish out of water, an easy target. So I've been in this slump. Feeling like such an awful person that had no friends. And this is where my first tender mercy came into play. I was on itunes, trying to use up my gift card I got for graduation. And I remembered that a lady in my ward had said the titles of some Hilary Weeks songs that she had performed at a fireside. So I went on facebook hoping that if I scrolled down on her profile long enough, that I might be able to see the titles. As i scrolled down I found a post from her that was meant for me to see right now. "Men are that they might have joy----Not guilt trips!"-Russell M. Nelson. After reading this talk, I know that I won't become perfect, not in this life anyway. Today I began to feel bad again, and then something wonderful happened. Another tender mercy. I remembered a quote that Brother Waldron had shared in seminary class. "Christ doesn't take the people out of the slums, He takes the slum out of the people and lets them get themselves out of the slums." So, Christ has taken that sin out of me, but now it's up to be to A-get better at this sin. and B-to forgive myself so that i can fully have repented.
Tonight was such a wonderful tender mercy as well. I had to opportunity to attend a baptism of a girl that lives in my neighborhood. She had asked me to give the talk on baptism. I was so nervous. But the tender mercy I had while I was there, was to feel of the sweet spirit that resides in those meetings. I am so proud of my little 'daughter' :) "it's amazing how vital the spirit becomes when we allow it into our lives"-Brother Jenkins.
Now on to other tender mercies. I decided to be the one to talk in college. People are in their own little bubble and I'm about to pop that bubble. I sat by the only other girl in my first class that this was her first semester of college. I think that we got along really well. The tender mercy I found in that class is that me and the girl next to me, Katie, both find how my teacher writes her e's to be ridiculous! :) In my second class, I found it easier to pay attention, regardless of how i feel about the teacher. My History BFF makes everything better in that class. The election for Brother Jenkins was brought up by her. I remembered everything that happened and I started to feel so bad for him. After talking to him later, i felt the tender mercy of his testimony that Heavenly Father blessed him for not winning the election. In my third class, we introduced ourselves to the class. That class is going to be so wonderful. I can learn so much from them. :) That was a tender mercy. My forth class I found someone to talk to, another tender mercy.
To top it all off, my sister invited me to go to institute with her and her friend. Yet another tender mercy. :)
I am so glad that I could receive these blessings, and that I again am happy :)
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